Friday, February 27, 2009

Rejection

No matter how you slice it, rejection sucks.

To be honest, I kinda saw it coming. Over the years my radar has been fine-tuned to a point of sensing the end long before the beginning is even in sight. I try to chalk it up to a deeply ingrained sense of cynicism, but the numbers keep proving otherwise.

Anyway, despite my doubts about the Contender, I've been trying... because you never know unless you try, right? But for the past few weeks (during which I haven't seen him--he's been sick) I was pretty sure his interest was fading.

Today I emailed him to see if he wanted to try to get together this weekend, and a few minutes ago he called to let me know that "it wasn't working out," and "he thought he was feeling it, but he wasn't, sorry."

So I (far too perkily) said "Okay" and thanked him for calling and not just vanishing into the stratosphere... then we basically wished each other a nice life and hung up.

And there you have it. On top of everything else stressing me out this week, the threat of dying alone once again looms large on the horizon.

Even though I wasn't really feeling it either, and even though I had a strong suspicion that this wasn't going anywhere... being rejected still sucks.

Even if I didn't want him, was it too much to want him to want me?

Apparently.

I guess I'll just have to take solace in the fact that the sex was mediocre at best... here's hoping a better Contender is lurking somewhere ahead.

12 comments:

Princess of the Universe said...

It's definitely not too much to want him to want you...and I am making a Princessy guarantee that you will not die alone.
xoxo

Hope said...

Worse case scenario, we die alone together, right?

And its not too much to want him to want you. Rejection is a bitch.

courtneyryan369 said...

Mental hugs from Upstate. Sorry to hear this news...but someone better will be along - trust me on that one.

But being rejected does suck. Allow yourself a day and 2 pieces of really good "insert comfort food here" and smile at the next cute guy you see and wink.

K said...

Rejection DEFINITELY sucks. I totally agree. (especially lately) I'm sorry to hear this though. But I'm sure there's someone even better out there who WILL feel it for ya.

And hey - I'm thinking of starting a club for all the singles so we don't all actually have to die alone. Then we can all be alone together - or together in our aloneness?. Something like that. I'll work on a catchy title.

amy said...

My darling, you're going to come out with me tonight--bonus that your hair is rockin'--and we're gonna have some fun. Maybe you'll meet a cutiepie bike guy (like Ed!) ... Hey! You never know. Regardless, you'll be with me. And that is always fun! (Ef him.)

Lily said...

Rejection totally sucks. I hear you. But mediocre sex is a non-negotiable! Good riddance!

W said...

Sorry duder :(

See you tomorrow night, yes?

Belle said...

Aw, sorry to hear. Yes even though you didnt want him, it still hurts when they dont want you. That always drives me mad. Im all 'I rejected you first motherfupper! I just didnt tell you!'

Still doesnt make you feel better.
on the other hand, remember hes leaving your life so someone better can come into it.

Hope you feel better soon.

B.x

Belle said...

Aw, sorry to hear. Yes even though you didnt want him, it still hurts when they dont want you. That always drives me mad. Im all 'I rejected you first motherfupper! I just didnt tell you!'

Still doesnt make you feel better.
on the other hand, remember hes leaving your life so someone better can come into it.

Hope you feel better soon.

B.x

EcK said...

If you play, you can lose. But hey, you can't win if you don't play.

risk vs reward or nada vs nothing.

The easiest choice is often the hardest choice.

Bridget said...

I am sorry to hear you're sad! Well, that he had a chance to reject you first. That sucks. MEN!

Sending you hugs.. we won't die alone. We have animals. Yikes. Is that really as pathetic as it sounds?

Therapeutic Ramblings said...

Wow...I've been a bad freader, I'm just getting to this now!