Friday, March 14, 2008

An interesting combination...

...of upset, angry, and nauseus.

My boss called me into his office about an hour ago to let me know that, thanks to some structural shuffling going on in the office, I will be losing my job possibly as early as the end of the month.

He stressed that this was not based on my performance, but rather on my scheduling concerns. They need someone who can work More Than Full Time.

Poor bastard. I do not envy my replacement.

But while I may not be too fond of my job, I sure as hell am NOT happy about losing it.

In fact, I am completely and totally freaked out.

I nearly cried on the phone with the Financial Aid office as they explained the screwed-up reasons why I can't take out extra loans to support my ass for the rest of the semester.

But I will not cry at work.

Will. Not. Fucking. Cry.

Mostly... mostly I am pissed off.

Pissed off because an hour ago I was in a freaking GREAT mood. And now there is a big fucking cloud hanging over my head.

And I get to go home this weekend and tell my parents that I'm losing my job. Way to put a fucking pall on my vacation, assholes.

The Boss couched the news in such a way as to illustrate his beneficience... saying he wanted to give me "the most warning possible."

But he also said that they'd originally planned to have this new person start on March 1st. So clearly this plan has been in the works for quite some time.

I'm wondering how many people here knew about this.

I'm also wondering how the hell I'm going to pay the rent and feed myself while still saving money for my study abroad, as somehow saving $400 a month no longer seems like a feasible plan.

I'm not looking forward to going through all the hassle of finding yet another new fucking job, just to quit in two months when I leave the country.

Jesus.

Somebody help me find a silver fucking lining before I completely lose my mind.

Or, you know, throw up on my desk.

Shit.

12 comments:

Deutlich said...

:::::HHHHHUUUUUGGGGGSSSS:::::

Tina Vaziri said...

How obnoxious of your boss, I'm sorry. :( Many hugs

Jess said...

Oh no, I'm so sorry! But you know what, honestly, I would suggest temp work since you're leaving so soon. It's not usually fun but it's a good way to ensure you'll have a steady income between now and when you leave without having to conduct a job search for something that is only going to be short-term anyway. And also if you get placed in an office that has something to do with your interests and skill set, like it usually works, you might make some valuable connections for later.

Good luck!

Z said...

I'm so sorry :(

Hope said...

Big hugs!

xx

Stephanie said...

Ugh, so sorry. What a way to change the mood of a Friday afternoon. Try to have a good weekend - hugs!

Single said...

That totally sucks!!!! I guess you have to try not to think about it this weekend and spend some time relaxing and enjoying life.

Princess of the Universe said...

Oh honey, I'm so sorry.

*BIG HUGS*

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

I feel YOU. That fucking blows how work can change your mood from happy and peaceful to comepletely fucking depressed.

Princess Pointful said...

Dammit.
That really super goddamn sucks, Froggie.
Maybe your boss can give you a heads up or some connections for another job? He owes you at least that!

chasinglibby said...

oh noooooo! tell me they give you some sort of severance package?! that's totally unfair. or at least get one hell of recommendation letter before you get out!

Samantha said...

omg!!! i'm so sorry to hear this sweetie! {{{hugs}}}